Dear Paul,Wow, where does the time go. It's be three years today since you left us and I feel like I was talking and laughing with you just the other day. I just wanted to pay tribute to you today and let you know that I am thinking of you. I reread my journal entry from the night I found out you had left us and my heart aches. I sobbed uncontrollably that night. I couldn't even find the words to explain how I felt. I remember you text me a couple nights before and told me you loved me. The next day I sent you an email and asked why you texted me in the middle of the night. You said you had had a really hard couple of weeks and you wanted me to know that you were thinking of me. I remember emailing you back saying that I would call you over the weekend. I am not sure if you ever got that email, but I did want you to know that I was thinking of you too. I miss you, Paul.
I remember the last time I saw you. I was visiting Texas and you dropped me off at the airport for my flight home. You parked illegally and a parking attendant told you to move your car. You just ignored her so that you could give me a hug goodbye. She kept yelling at you to move and you kept ignoring her. For some reason it was so funny. Everything with you was like that - just every day situations made so much more fun because you were there. I miss you, Paul.
I can't wait until I can see you again someday and introduce you to my beautiful son and wonderful husband. I think you'd really like them. You have the greatest friends and family. I remember at your funeral the church was packed wall-to-wall with people and then some. I wonder if you knew how many people's life you touched. I bet if you did, you'd still be with us here today. I miss you, Paul.
You were one of my best friends. I will never forget you. I miss you, Paul.
Love,
Kristen
8 comments:
It's hard to believe Paul has been gone for 3 years. He was one of the good guys. Kristina, if you read this just know that Phil and Jody miss Paul as well. We love you family!
Wow. I couldn't have said it better myself. What a void he left in our lives. Kelli A and I were recently talking about how much we miss him...
Beautiful tribute.
I miss him, too.
oh no who is your friend Paul? How sad he is dead, how did that happen?
Kristen....that was so sweet and heartfelt. I know how close you were to Paul and how much you must miss him. It doesn't seem like it's been 3 years.
I almost cried reading this. Well written.
Paul, Rest In Peace.
Kristen, my heart broke for you reading this. I wish like you said that he would have known how many people cared for and loved him. I always wonder when someone dies that way about the life that should have been, but wasn't, because of a moment of despair. You wish so badly they could have seen past that moment. I'm so sorry you had to lose him too soon.
Thank you Kris, I needed that.
I love you.
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