I'm trying not to make every post on here about pregnancy...but to be honest I don't have much else to talk about right now! My pregnancy has taken over my life and consumed my thoughts; especially lately as February is creeping up on me. I'm so excited for our little guy to get here, but at the same time I have so many overwhelming feelings, thoughts and emotions. I keep hearing from everyone around me that Adam and I better enjoy our time together now because before we know it life will be changed forever. This is something I understand that I don't fully comprehend now, seeing as we still sleep through the night, have a quiet house when we want it, don't have smashed up cheerios all over the kitchen, etc. etc. I think a tiny selfish part of me will miss having Adam 100% to myself once the baby is born, but the other part of me is so excited to grow our family. This is something both Adam and I have wanted all our lives!
I have so many questions that keep running through my head....will I be a good mother? Will I still be a good wife? Will my body every be back to "normal?" Will I still be able to juggle working some while raising a child and helping to keep our home in order? The list goes on and on and on. I've read multiple books on pregnancy thus far, and I guess you can only read and try to prepare so much and then the rest is left to the real life experiences and learning as you go. Lucky for me I have so many wonderful family and friends around me that are such amazing examples of mothers and women. I can only hope that I am half as good as a mother as my mom was to me or as my sister-in-law Sarah is to my two beautiful nieces. They make motherhood look so easy!
One other quick thing - last night I woke up at 4 AM with a horrible leg cramp and sat straight up and said OWWW really loud. I think I must have scared Adam, as he woke up and was like are you ok, what can I do... Poor guy, he probably thought the baby was trying to escape or something. I guess that's a miniature preview of what is yet to come. I hear that getting a charlie horse in your leg is quite common in pregnant women. I seem to get them a LOT! It is so annoying, and HURTS! Adam's sister Kristie said she too used to get them too and the best thing to do is get up and walk around. So early this morning at 4 AM I was up walking around our room whimpering with a stupid charlie horse. Thank heavens it subsided a bit and I was able to fall back asleep.
So I guess that's it for now on my thoughts on my little guy, as I like to call him. Actually, we have already picked out our baby's name. I'll close this post with his name, for those of you who don't already know:
Rocklin Jay Birkmeyer
